Nights, Dissolution of I series 2024 Gonzalo Gutierrez

VIII

Surrender, allow yourself to speak through yourself and soon you will discover with ease you do not exist.

But these so called artists, so many guests of reality, they wanted to be so big they spoke through others so as to claim others, so as to speak for others.

The game at first was fun. You speak through me and I speak through you.

But after you steal from me what is more dear to me, what then?

Anger arrives, self delusion arrives, pain takes the place of joy.

What brought you joy now can’t be trusted and you start listening to anger speaking to you

And because you are frustrated that you allow them to speak through you in the first place

Now you can’t but listen to your anger

You tell yourself it is too late

You are impermanent but they wanted to fix you under their names.

Because you are that anger

Because that anger represents what they did to you

And the more anger speaks through you

The more at peace they find themselves

Soon you discover that you want peace

Because you have confused the anger of fire with the light of peace

But you don’t allow yourself to feel at peace for it would mean to allow them to speak through you again.

That’s their final trick, Zhuangzi  said as he rode the wind.

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They never felt themselves at peace

They wore other people’s faces like masks but with trickery defended their position.

So now you know.

Their mirrors are shallow, never deep said Zhuangzi

A deep mirror would dissolve them and they wouldn’t allow themselves to be dissolved

They see people and things as shallow mirrors they can use

In them they can hide and come out interchangeably, that is all.

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They turned completions into so many mirrors

Looking for conversions to support their goal of domination.

He continued saying

People usually project what they want and lack

And they attach their name to such projections in order to posses it under the rule of law.

They manipulate the state of affairs

They understand well the game

They called themselves chess masters

And they are willing to sacrifice the king to save the queen, for

In their game of chess

The king is not a king

But the queen is a queen.

They are nostalgic for the time of monarchies.

Through the game they express the repressed desire of their predecessors.

They believe that during the monarchies all under the sun dreamt of becoming kings and queens because they believed nobody wants to be a slave.

Their motto artist x artist is really mask x mask.

Who are they but their desire to remain?

The closest they can get to eternity

Another word they mistake with themselves

And so they are willing to kill and to die for a projection that they mistake with themselves, so who cares, forget about it all and ride the wind with me.

Gonzalo A Gutiérrez Hernández, September 2024